Seriously !!!

I cannot believe i just messed up my midterm... this is certainly not what i expected in that particular subject atleast... least of all that subject... i mean what was i thinking... i was so confident that i will be able to do well in this.. but no that did not happen...and i can't even blame anyone else except for me.. the exam was simple, it was not even close to difficult and my professor is awesome but i seriously am having second thoughts over this, i don't think i am built for this and this is so pathetic that after having come so far i do this !!! I just feel extremely pissed off at myself coz its just inexcusable ... everyone else seems to have done it well except for me ... why the hell do i have to work like 1000 times harder than anyone else to get one thing right... its just not fair... i can't afford(literally) to fumble now ... i just can't
Oh dear lord i wonder what will happen as i go deeper and deeper into this !!!

Just!!!!!!!!!!!

So the new things are
1> I usually get late for everything... work , class , assignments(well i am usually the one who will submit it like just an hour before the deadline... i have no clue why)... I think i should get an award ... I am the queen of procrastinating.... and then i run and run and run and crib and crib and crib.. i seriously think i should do something about this but I do nothing!

2> I think i should stop paying my rent coz i am forever living in the library... Leavey Library to be precise.. its like becoming my first home and USC is making me crazy with assignments and assignments and more assignments... its like by the time the weekend comes I am like dead and all i can dream of as soon as my last class finishes for the week is a bed... its like i am walking home and thinking of a bed and SLEEP... its like such a priceless thing

3> Life is otherwise boring... i mean nothing new... same old new stuff(yeah thats an oxymoron) but thats how it is ...

4> My class is full of geeks ... i wonder what will i do :( :(

Queue is the way I currently work... i wonder when will i get a chance to press the reset button( DONOT EVEN TRY TO DECODE IT... its something you would not understand and it is supposed to be that way)

Find your way to a bad day !!!

My life would be soo much simpler if there was just a ctrl+F button in my brain... i mean like seriously easier .... or everything should have a beeper in it so that when you press it you immediately find it .... I swear this idea would sell coz i like to believe that there are plenty people who suffer from the same fate of losing things

I just read nandu's blog about having knowing that its not your day when ... so here is my version of a bad day(nowdays) which comprises of
1> I get up at 7:20 am in the morning and I have work from 8 am.. so I have to choose in between having a bath and having breakfast... what a choice :( :(

2>Wearing the wrong clothes at the wrong time, the temperature change in LA is really weird, one day its super sunny..and that to pinching sun rays... and the very next day its gonna be super cool ... and if I wear something based on the earlier weather(without seeing the weather) I usually end up being toasted in the sun or shivering in the cold !!!

3> Nothing good to eat at home :( and getting reminded of the fact that you have to make food yourself(well i just chop vegetables:D, but still) just when you have had nothing since morning it just sucks

4>Losing my way just when I was getting 5 mins late so that I can be 15 mins late

5> In the lab, with 20 odd students, I am the only one who could not get the result and its super embarrassing to say the least.

6> Just when I thought that i would go visit a parlour , some guy pointing out that i really need to go !!!!!!!!!!!!Now that is just the limit !!!!

A lot of other things also come in the list but i can't seem to remember, you see thats the thing with me, when i get a topic i would not remember half the things !!!!

Forbidden Fruit!!

Another of my random thoughts !!!


Why is it always tempting to go for the forbidden fruit, It seems to me that as soon as i see something forbidden I get all charged up , Its not that i usually give in to that impulse but nevatheless the temptation is just to great, and since its forbidden its a lot of fun to give in even though I would regret it later(not alwaysd though)... It seems as if the devil in me is trying with all his might to give in and when i do(well sometimes i do give in) he gives me the wide grin... I always get reminded of the cartoons and the way they depicted showing the devil and angel simulatneoulsy and in the end the devil wins after thrashing the angel :D :D its just soo funny !!!!

Anyway so why are we, women programmed like that... well i don't know whether its the same with men , i presume it is but i am not sure so i will give them the benefit of doubt but why why why are we tempted.... its like you get a certain thrill out of it and sometimes the fruit is just soo sweet and so difficult not to fall for it that its a pity to think that its forbidden :(

Lost !!!!

Its been a long long time with all my friends, we had passed the stage of judging at every step ,we just became friends and they liked me from what i was /am and i like them for what they were/are. Its so tough to get good friends or rather its just so tough to get the same set of friends you are so used to(all those major years).
I remember the countless discussions that all of us used to have... all the philosophical discussions , girl talk, scrutinizing everything and any random thing ,gossip sessions and what not, but i always knew that i was being me. It is so true when they say that you would understand the value of something when you don;t have it anymore... I used to be "me".. i don't know if i have lost myself somewhere or am i pretending to be someone who is not me .. or am i just trying to fit in the crowd? And i would be a hypocrite to do that coz i always thought that you should be yourself not put some facade on, and i seriously never ever thought i would do that , infact i still don't know whether or not am i doing that ,I'm trying to figure out myself.
Someone asked me today "am I homesick" No am not but its difficult finding the same set of mindsets... its not that i am closed or anything about what to have in a friend but I just want to be "me" and somehow or something is pushing me away from that or so i think...

Ok i seriously i have no idea of what i wrote , its just a random thought!

Song of the day(Nandu style :D) : Down down down by jay sean ... he is soo cool !!!

A new favourite

Its 7 in the morning and i have not slept a wink... I was doing all the random stuff in the world , and i came accross the 2 songs which are stuckk in my head ... first one is "I love you" by " Martina Mcbride"from the movie "runnaway bride" and its awesome... woah and i love the lyrics... hear it out for yourself !!

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The lyrics are

Yeah The sun is shining everyday The clouds never get in the way for you and me I�ve known you just a week or two But baby I�m so into you I can hardly breathe And I�m in So totally wrapped up Emotionally attracted So physically active So recklessly I need you So desperately sure as the sky is blue Baby I love you I love you I never knew that I could feel like this Can hardly wait till our next kiss You�re so cool If I�m dreaming please don�t wake me up �cause baby I can�t get enough of what you do And I�m in So electrically charged up Kinetically active Erractically need you Fanatically you get to me Magically sure as the sky is blue Baby I love you I can�t believe That this is real The way I feel Baby I�ve gone head over heels And I�m in So totally wrapped up Emotionally attracted So fisically active So recklessly I need you So desperately sure as the sky is blue Yeah And I�m in So electrically charged up Kinetically active Erractically need you Fanatically you get to me Magically sure as the sky is blue Baby I love you Baby I love you Do you love me too? Baby I love you

The second song which is stuck is "Unchained melody" by righteous brothers and its the sweetest romantic melody I have heard in a long long time and does make me all mushy mushy .. I'm sure you would like it too !!!

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Man I love this song !!!!!!!
Sid: thanks a ton for those 2 songs again :)

Locked Locked Locked (Part II)

So this is the continuing of the earlier post... the story doesn't end there !!!! I come back home and call up this friend "ankur" who lives just on top of our apartment and he comes down.... Apparently he knew about the door being locked and all.... infact just like 10 mins before he came he had left a comment on the Part I of the story ..... and he comes in .... and I explain to him what did they do to break the lock.. blah blah... and the very curious ankur goes to see for himself... and in that process locks the door to see if it will open or no... and WE GOT LOCKED AGAIN :| :| :|( we were not supposed to lock the door coz it won't open till we get a new lock)


I could not believe that I was stuck in the same situation as like 4-5 hours again.... I was busy cursing ankur and laughing simultaneously... and he could not figure out what is soo hilarious about the situation!!!!!He actually took his Iphone away from me coz he thought i was capable of doing anything !!!!

Anyway so we try opening the lock again... and we try and sneak in through the window but but but the window was closed :( :( ... So we try every thing and use like everything we could get ... from a tong to a cooker handle( i don't know why we used that ..) and even called up the locksmith who was charging $180 for coming in at 12 in the night ... Finally with the help of ankur and a couple of other neighbours we opened the door !!!!!!


Phewwwww.... no more closing of the door till the lock is changed... thats for sure

Moral of the story: Don't let ankur explore on his own :D :D